Shocked in disbelief

It has been less than 24 hours since a prosecuter called me to advise me that MLRA had indeed been dropped off at the welfare office.  I was in disbelief but sort of relieved in a way.  See the angry text messages had continued.  But, for some reason yesterday morning I woke up in a fiesty mood where I no longer wanted to control myself but I wanted to unleash my disappointment as well. 

I got a text from aunt #2 stating that she had "heard" that I killed babies and had a dozen abortions and that I had had a dozen husbands.  So, instead of controlling myself, I shot her back a text that I had "heard" she killed a dozen cows and dinnertime the way she ate hamburgers. 


That wasn't my only response where I didn't hold back.  Aunt #2 had sent me a text calling me a coward for not transferring MLRA to her.  So, I angrily told her I HAD dropped off MLRA to her, talked to her about getting him into school and therapy and HAD made arrangements to transfer the legal guardianship to her.  I called her a tub of lard and a wench.

Okay, I stooped to their level and I shouldn't have but for a brief second I was glad.  But, yeah not anymore. 

So, today, I talked to the social worker that received MLRA when Aunt #2 dropped him off.  He said that Aunt #2 walked into the office, said she needed to drop off MLRA because she didn't have the financial resources or legal resources to take care of him.  The social worker asked if she needed help getting financial assistance or legal guardianship and she said no.  That even if she had the money and the legal guardianship that she couldn't take care of him because MLRA was too physically aggressive.  That he asked why? and that she said she had two other children and couldn't risk their safety.  That I had legal guardianship and that I had not wanted him and dumped him on her doorstep and "left him for dead". 

He said that Aunt #2 then turned around and went to outside and brought MLRA in and gave him a hug and said goodbye.  That MLRA started freaking out and started crying asking her where she was going and that she went outside and came back in and dumped his belongings on the floor and that MLRA tried to grab onto her and that she walked out with MLRA screaming for her to not leave him. 

The social worker said that it was so hard core that he kept replaying the scene in his mind and that the whole scene brought tears to the cops that were present. 

The social worker ended with telling me that he would be willing to consider letting me see him or talk to him but that he didn't necessarily know if that was a good thing considering that I wasn't going to be a long term solution for him.  However, the social worker did say that he thought that MLRA was doing very well in the new foster home and that he didn't know if that was a honeymoon period or not but that the family wanted to adopt him.  He said it was not the ideal choice for him racially and culturally but that frankly MLRA was happy to be there and hopefully it would be a fast track for adoption. 

Please pray for MLRA.