This weekend was especially hard

I am feeling the stress and pressure.  I no longer have the patience to deal with MLRA. I notice it in myself and my husband has noticed it.  I feel that I'm done. 

This past Saturday, our little family went on a small roadtrip to visit relatives.  Once at our relative's home, MA went on timeout for I don't remember why to be honest.  So, my husband took him out to the car for timeout and one of my relatives went outside with my husband.  While they were out there, a girl walked by the vehicle and MLRA noticed her.  He told my husband, Dad, she is pretty, why don't you leave Mom and marry her so she can become my new mom?  On the way home, MLRA told me two or three times, that I needed a new face because he didn't like my face.  A benign comment but together with all his other behavior was wearing on me. 

On Sunday, my husband was very impatient with him and his behaviors so I decided to take MLRA to WalMart to select a toy.  He gets stickers for good behavior, the behavior we are currently working on is not saying, "I'm going to f(&k you in the a$$" to his teachers.  So, he gets a sticker everyday that he uses kind words at school and on the van ride home.  He has stopped saying it because he LOVES stickers.  When he earns 20 stickers he can pick out a toy at WalMart, his favorite store. 

At WalMart he was fine.  He had fun picking out what he was going to buy.  He was so good, that I thought I would take him to run errands with me.  However, we didn't last 5 minutes in the first store because he started acting out.  So, I called my husband to tell him, I was dropping him off and that I had to finish errands alone.  I dropped him off and I left to go to run errands. 

I called a half hour later to see how things were going and my husband said that he had started kicking himself and started trying to pull his eyeballs out so he gave him a shower to calm down.  MLRA didn't like the shower and went into a rage and started splashing water angrily around and screaming.  So, my husband told him that he would let him take a nap to calm down.  MLRA agreed.  He lay down for a nap after a little bit of fussing but eventually did fall asleep. 

I chose to stay away a little bit longer to destress. 

When I got home, I was mentally in a better place to deal with MLRA.  But, after dinner, I was watching television and MLRA climbed up on the chair with me and immediately cupped my breasts.  I pushed him away and he said to me, "Mom are you upset because I touched your private parts?"  I told him, "you do not touch other people's private parts".  He smiled at me and said, I can only touch mine right?  I said yes.  and he said, laughing but I touched yours mom.  Are you upset with me? 

ARGH!  I have a 13 year old niece that is developing and she is staying with us for part of her summer vacation and I feel that I have to protect her from him.  I think I've had it when I can't have family over for fear of what he will do to them.  

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